Why?

5/6/2015 3:02am

Why am I still awake, why am I not asleep curled up under my blankets dreaming of my boyfriend and our future?

I will tell you why I am awake...  Nightmares, night terrors that nothing but being in someone's arms will ever help.

Here recently nothing has helped, I fell asleep on skype with my bf and he stayed on with me almost an hour and i woke up twice almost screaming and crying.

Every night it is something different.  Last night it was my family being tortured before my eyes and I was stuck behind a plate of thick glass, they didn't even know I was there.  Tonight it was my sister being raped as she cried out for me to help her but I was tied down and couldn't get loose.  Things like this when it's hurting others or animals no matter who it is, they are what get me the most.  I could care less if you hurt me but hurt my family and we have a problem.

I just can't help but worry that the might terrors are a bad omen for problems to come in the family...

Guess I should try and go back to bed even if I don't sleep.